Sugary Weekend

My FL SD flew in late Friday night.  Saturday afternoon,  I took a cab to the same stylish hotel he always stays in NYC- just like last time, he was waiting for me in front of the hotel, opened the door for me and paid the driver.  As he had suggested earlier this week, shortly after my arrival, I went to the spa located in the basement of the hotel for an hour massage before we headed for dinner.  The hotel staff members were super nice as I read in the reviews.  He was still acting shy so we didn't make out or anything in the hotel room,even though we had already slept together last time.  He is so different from other SDs..any other SD would be kissing me and holding me whenever they got a chance!  When I was getting ready to leave the room for dinner, I noticed there was a thick envelope in my bag.  Somthing was written on the envelope: "Georgina, here is a monthly allowance.  In the future I can either give it to you directly or deposit it in your account.  I think it is very nice that you are helping your sister" (I had mentioned that I was supporting my sister).  It was such a lovely surprise!  I thanked him so much...I was planning to email him my bank account information after this weekend.  Wow, now officially I have 2 sugar daddies.. I know it's wrong but now I can't go back.  They are both so sweet...I will just keep seeing them both as long as I can.

We had dinner at a lovely Italian restaurant.  Then walked to the theater to see the most popular musical show in town.  All the tickets were sold out through Fall but somehow he got us tickets.  He remembered that I was dying to see it from our conversation last time we saw each other.  I didn't even remember mentioning it to him.  He is an amazing planner!  The show was beyond my expectation.  Spa, fancy dinner, the best show, and I get $2000 cash allowance?!  I was feeling a little guilty.  He did so much for me.  It was around 11pm when we got back to our hotel room.  He still didn't make any move on me.  The least I can do for him is to please him in bed, so I took a quick shower and put on sexy lingerie (which was a gift from my former SD, hahaha).  He said I looked so beautiful..and FINALLY kissed me.  So we started making love.  He loves giving me oral...forever and ever.  I almost never enjoy recieving oral so I was really annoyed because he kept going back there all night.  Just like the last time, he had a problem getting hard.  It was up, but just not hard enough.  We tried and tried so many times, but we just couldn't put it inside of me.  It just wasn't hard enough!  We had the same situation last time, but we managed to put it in once even though it didn't last long before it got softer and came out.  I tried all the tricks I could think of.  Nothing worked.  He wanted to give up but I felt so bad.  He didn't cum last time.  He couldn't even fuck me this time.  I was determined to make him cum this time.  I got some lotion from the bathroom and applied on his penis.  As I was giving him a hand job, it was getting a little harder so I knew he was enjoying it..but still it wasn't hard enough to try putting it inside of me.  Eventually he came.  I was relieved. He definately has problems getting hard, keeping hard and ejaculating.  Is this why he chose to have an arrangement rather than regular dating?  I wonder...

He had to leave around 6:30am so I stayed longer.  Whenever I leave the hotel room alone, I take home whatever I can take from the hotel room, like soap, pens, notepads, etc..hahaha.  I have a collection of hotel pens at home :)

Later today, I got a text message from Justin!  He is finally back from Europe.  I was waiting for him to get back to me for 2 months!  He is a musician I met 3 months ago- we spent 2 nights together.  I really liked him and have been listening to his CD almost every day.  He asked me if I could come over to his place tonight.  That's so rude...he has no respect for me.  He is the one who was all over me, begging me to come over to his place back in May.  We had sex 3 times last time I slept over in his place.  Then I didn't hear from him for over 2 months.  I told him that I like spending time with him but I feel like I'm his booty call. That's so true!  He should have emailed me before he came back to NY.  He should have at least suggested dinner or something.  He replied: "I don't think of you like that, silly. Just got back and thought of seeing a friendly face".  We decided to get together on Thursday.  I have mixed feelings.  I'm so attracted to him. I have so many guys in my life but he is the only one I could date for real.  But how can I date anyone for real at this point in my life?  I have 2 sugar daddies and a lover (N)!  It's impossible to break up with N and I can't afford to lose sugar daddies.  But I can't stay single forever.  I need to find someone special, get married and have kids soon.  If I stay in sugar world, I will stay single forever.  If I only date for real, I can't support myself.  I still make very little money from my current job.  I'm not ready to give up on my job.  I know I have to make changes in my life soon.  I don't know what it is just yet but I can't live like this anymore.