Decision Time

I spent almost 24 hours with CA SD.  We had lunch at a fancy, overpriced restaurant I picked in Midtown.  Food was great but so expensive as everyone wrote on yelp!  Then we had body scrub and couples massage at a nice spa on the same block.  He was very happy with how I picked and arranged everything for us. After spa, he drove us to the hotel he was staying in Times Square. I felt like a tourist in that hotel!  I'm so used to 5 star hotels like Four Seasons, Hotels on Central Park South, etc...  We had sex once before dinner.  I began to realize he is a terrible kisser...it's not even kissing.  It's more like suffocating and drooling.  It is truly disgusting.  I wonder why nobody ever told him that he isn't supposed to do that?  How did all of his former SBs let him kiss them like that?  What about his wife?  Nobody ever told him it's disgusting?

We had amazing dinner at his favorite Indian restaurant.  I loved everything we ordered.  I really love fine dining only when it's free for me of course.  When we went back to our room, we had a great conversation.  From religion to politics.  He is really smart and it's like I'm talking to a professor.  Fun and educational.  He talked to his wife on the phone like 3 times during the night.  That's their routine and I found it so sweet.  We did it again.  It only gets more disgusting every time.  I'm not happy about that!  He is such a great guy outside of bed- totally disgusting in bed... 

In the morning, it was becoming unbearable.  So unpleasant and distasteful.  He was deep tounging my ears!  I pushed his face away from my ears many times but he kept coming back.  He was drooling all over my body too.  His saliva on my face and my hair. Disgusting.  How come all the girls stayed with him for years?  I don't understand.  I really felt like punching him in the face, apologize and leave him for good.  He should be aware that I was suffering.  I was acting like I was in pain and kept pushing him away.  After he was done finally, he made me a cup of tea.  I told him I needed to eat so we went downstairs for breakfast buffet.  I love hotel breakfast, especially when they have smoked salmon.  Again we talked about politics and family.  We never discuss sex.  He believes we will stay together for a long time.  That's what I thought too. Now I'm having a second thought of course... We get along well, have great times, I get to pick what to do, where to go....but how much longer can I tolerate him in bed?  Not much longer.   He is so sweet it will be so hard for me to dump him. But he is the most stable SD for me.  I can count on him financially.  He will never leave me. 

After I came home, I was still disgusted and still had pain in my ears.  N wanted to see me.  I wanted to see him too but I was totally exhausted.  He said he could come over.  I worked for a couple hours before he arrived.  We made love like there's no tomorrow!!  We went absolutely crazy on each other as if we were erasing all the bad memories from our lives.  Well I'd just had bad sex so I needed good one, but what was with him?  As we were making out passionately, I was thinking that it's really impossible to break up with him.  We so need each other.  We really understand each other.  Yet he has a girlfriend and I have a sugar daddy.  Obviously we are not getting what we need elsewhere.

Surprising news!!  FL SD agreed to give me monthly allowance!  I don't know how to take this news.  I was trying to dump him because I already have CA SD.  FL SD said that he can deposit allowance into my bank account, but he wants to start with $2000.  He is flying in again this weekend.  Conveniently CA SD is not available this weekend.  So I can spend this weekend with FL SD.  He is much younger and attractive.  Not disgusting at all.  But I don't feel secure with him...I have a feeling that he may leave me out of nowhere like my former SD, Mr. D.  I need stable financial assistance.  I have to make a decision soon.  Obviously it's impossible to keep them both.  I won't have enough time for 2 sugar daddies.  What if they fly in at the same time?  They both want to fly me to their town.  I have no idea what I'm going to do.  Well I will see FL SD this weekend and I will take it from there...