I went on a date with someone new last night. His name is Ron; Someone I met at work last week. He took me to a lovely Italian restaurant. I couldn't decide between 2 dishes so he suggested we ordered both and shared them. Food was absolutely delicious and we had an amazing conversation. He was so sweet, smart and considerate...we got along very well. It just feels too weird because he is so different from the guys I'm used to. I'm just so used to dating millionaires and celebrities. Ron is a high school graduate fireman. I know I sound so shallow...but that fact is really holding me back from wanting to date him. After being in the sugar world for a while, I don't think I can be with a blue-collar guy...although Ron seems quite intelligent and refined with great manners. He asked if he could see me again. I said yes. I was so shocked and impressed by the fact that he didn't try to kiss me last night. I go on a lot of dates but this is so rare! Especially after a long romantic dinner with a bottle of wine (he was even feeding me!). Wow. Not that I wanted to kiss him...I really like him as a person but not sure if I'm attracted to him. I feel relaxed and comfortable with him though...like we can talk about anything and everything. I'm sure there will be a second date soon. I realldy don't know what I want/who I want! I guess I will take my time and find out.
Both N and Justin are out of town for work. Although I'm so attracted to them, they never take me out to dinner. Never any kind of romantic gesture from them, yet they are the only guys I'm crazy about. Sometimes I get really upset thinking about what I have with them (or what I don't have with them)...I often consider not seeing them for a while to clear my head. But as long as I'm single, I desparately need someone to have great sex with! Sex with my SDs hardly count as sex for their inability to perform in bed.
I guess when I meet my Mr. Right, I will just know. Hopefully that day will come soon!
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