You are mine

I met Mr. D at our usual hotel bar.  He told me what happened over the weekend-  so his wife went to his computer and found his email account she didn't know about.  It was empty.  He explained that it was the account he used for facebook only.  She just knew something was up..she stayed suspicious and really mad over the weekend.  He asked what she would do if he did what Anthony Weiner did- send his nude photos to other girls.  She said she would divorce him. He was terrified- he said, "I'm worried that I will get caught and my life will crumble before me, especially my relationship with my kids. I guess I always thought if I got caught I would get a second chance.  After this weekend I'm sure that wouldn't be the case".  He suggested that we should have a short break for a few months...and he may not come back to me.  I almost cried at the bar..I was really sad but kept telling him that I only wanted what's best for him and I wanted him to be happy.  Working on his marriage is the right thing to do.  He wanted me not only because he was so attracted to me but something was clearly missing at home.  I asked him if he could work on it to find what's missing with his wife.  He has tried.  Maybe he can keep trying.  He said, "You are someone I could fall in love with.  If we keep seeing each other, that's what's gonna happen.  Isn't that true?  Aren't we going to fall in love with each other?"  I said, "Well...I think I'm already in love with you.."  I couldn't look at him then so not sure how he reacted..we talked a lot for 2 hours.  What he really wants is to have 2 lives.  He decided that he wants to keep me- but he will email me only from him office and from his phone, and never from home.  He can only see me once or twice a month.  He said I deserve so much better and more..maybe I should look for a real boyfriend.  "But I only want you" I said.  He also brought up the fact that I want to have a baby within 2 years.  He said he really wants to have another kid, but not with his wife. He kissed me on the forehead when he had to go to the bathroom.  Risky move, considering that his wife is on a mission...but it was the sweetest thing ever.  Then he said, "You are mine".

We went back to his hotel room and made love.  While he was inside of me, he said, "So you think you are in love with me?"  I said yes.  I kind of wanted to tell him "I love you" but I thought it was too much for now...   He asked me to go on birth control pills.  No!!  I'm just against it!  So I said no..."For me?  Please?"  I said I would think about it.  But no!!  After he left, he emailed me, "Look into what we talked about last night..it will make such a difference in our intimacy"  I wrote, "Oh that...we will talk about it".  Then he said, "Yes, let's talk about it".  He is not giving up.  I really don't want to. from breaking up with me to birth control pills.  What a night.