Good Bye.

Mr. D cancelled our meeting yesterday. Just one email.  His business dinner got pushed off until much later.  That's it.  no "I miss you" or "I really wanted to see you" or "I think about you all the time"...nothing.  His feelings for me just stopped last weekend. so I sent him only one word: "OK".  No mentioning on our trip.  Never heard from him again after that all day.  We usually exchange emails all day every day with lots of emotions and passionate words....He is leaving the country for about 10 days on Friday...He said he will try to call me before his departure so we can talk.  It sounds like he is breaking up with me for real this time.

I emailed Mr. D this morning asking if he still wanted me to come to vegas with him.  A few hours later he reponded.  Basically, he broke up with me. It has nothing to do with me but it has everything to do with the stress it is causing in his life.  He said I'm absolutely beautiful, smart and have tremendous integrity.  He wants to see me and get caught up on how thing are going, maybe at the end of July.  I cried a bit.  I have developed strong feelings for him. I know he did too.  Maybe this is for the best.  I'm just hurt and sad.  I wonder if he can ever be happy with his wife.  He may feel like something is missing for the rest of his life.  I think he will want me back in the future.  He wants to see me at the end of next month to see how I'm doing?  FOR SURE I will have a new SD by then.  It will be too awkward to tell him about my new SD.  I don't want to lie to him if he asks...but what's the point of seeing him next month anyways?  He doesn't want to continue sugar relationship with me any more.  He just wants to keep in touch with me?  I will figure it out next month.

My profile on SA is pending for approval.  I uploaded my hottest bikini photo..when it's approved, I will get millions of emails!  I'm asking for $3000 monthly now.  I honestly do not  think I will meet anyone as great as Mr. D.  I just want somebody nice, clean, fun and rich. I will save as much money as possible for now and eventually I want to meet someone for real to marry. 

I really can't believe I have to go through SD search again!!  Meeting guys for the first time is emotionally exhausting for me.  Sigh..