So sick of it..

I'm so sick of it.
Between both me and Mr. D, me and N keep having std scares.  It's really getting old.
We all have tested so many times.
Obviously we all sleep with other people.  All the foreign bacterias and yeast are being exchanged.
I think that keeps causing yeast or some kind of infections.
Every time Mr. D's wife get yeast infection, he freaks out and asks me if I slept with anyone else.  I deny it of course.  Now he says he has been a little itchy and sore.  He had some over the counter yeast cream.  I think he is just keeping on passing yeast back and forth between me and his wife.  He should just stick to using condoms with me, really.  A couple month ago, N had told me the exact same thing.  He was sore and itchy.  Asked if I had slept with anyone else recently.  Again, I denied it of course.  After seeing a Dr, it turned out to be nothing.  Of course it freaks me out also and I think I was tested like 3-4 times this year.  It is ridiculous and annoying.

Mr. D is freaking out and N is a little upset with me now because we almost got together last night but we didn't.  I was waiting for his reply and decided to hang out with friends instead.  By the time he got back to me, I was already in a cab with a friend.  So I told him that it was too late I had made other plans already.  Oh well.  He may not see me tomorrow after all.

I feel like my relationship with Mr. D is shaky and not stable enough..and I'm trying to be just friends with N.  I'm a bit freaking out.. even if Mr. D and I stay together, we may see each other only twice a month.  I'm so used to having sex often..will it be enough for me??  I'm so tempted to try a new SD (who uses a condom every time!)..but that is so wrong.  I sound crazy but I need more sex and more money.  I wasn't suppposed to fall for my SD...it was supposed to be like business.  But now we are in love, everything is complicated and I'm stuck.