I met a potential SD, Mr. G, for a drink at a hotel bar last night. He was charming, sophisticated, not bad looking- over all, very nice. I guess I can say he is attractive... and he talks A LOT. He has so much to say about everything. I didn't get to say much because he did alllll the talking... I realized that I don't really like men who talk a lot. If we are both talking a lot, I guess that's fine, but he didn't let me interrupt most of the time. It wasn't like we were having a conversation, but he was talking the whole time and I was listening the whole time. If we decide to have a relationship/arrangement, he will talk my ear off... Another thing that bothered me was that he said all the cheating married men want to get caught by their wives unconsciously. I don't think so! Of course not!! I told him why my last relationship with SD ended and he believed my SD got caught purposely. Obviously he has never cheated on his wife so he wouldn't know how it could ruin his life (he is divorced). He had to run to his business dinner so I quickly reminded him about my monthly allowance requirement- which I emphasized clearly in my emails. He asked how much, so I said, "you don't remember??", and he goes, "I forgot". How could he forget?? I had told him that I wouldn't meet him in person unless he was ok with $3000 and he had agreed to it. So I told him again it is $3000. He said he is ok with it. He seemed to like me a lot, but I haven't heard from him. He is good enough but I would never date him for real. Oh, he asked me if there's any chance of my former SD and I would get back together- I said absolutely not- but I was thinking maybe... I really want him back. Mr. D and I were really compatible. There was nothing I disliked about him.
After I left the hotel, I went to see N to help him with his work. We never do anything physical whenever business is involved. He said he needed to work all night so I left his studio. It was still early so I was walking to the subway then N called me. He changed his mind and wanted me to come back....so cute...so I went back and we had sex.. I'm no longer with Mr.D so I don't really have a reason to stop being intimate with him. I was happy and felt like it was just two of us- nobody else existed. I was thinking probably he wasn't dating that 21 yr old anymore, so I asked, "Are you still with that child?". He said yes without hesitation! First of all, I was totally expecting him to say, "what child? What are you talking about?" but instead he knew exactly I was talking about...so he agrees that she is a child?? Neither of us spoke for a while after that then he changed the subject as always. When I was leaving, he asked me if I felt bad. My answer was, "No, I don't. YOU do". He didn't say anything. Why should I feel bad? THEY should feel bad. I feel like I'm the main girl. N should be calling ME his gf. Not that child. I have been with him for 3 years- obviously I'm so damn important to him, and obviously he prefers having sex with me to her!!
Mr. D emailed me from South America today for the first time since we broke up. It was short and just asking how I'm doing.. We exchanged a few emails but we only talked about health, weather, trip, family and stuff. Like friends. This is so frustrating. Maybe I shouldn't keep in touch with him. I feel way too attached to him.
I talked to another potential SD on the phone. He is a married dentist. He was in a great relationship with his former SB but it ended so he really misses having a SB. So we are both heartbroken! We will have lunch on Thursday. I have a good feeling about this one. It will be a simple arrangement. He will come over to my place once a week, and that's it. It's more business like but I guess it's ok. No drama. It won't take much of my time so I can have another part time SD possibly.
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