So My Search For The New SD Began..

I posted my profile on SA a few days ago.  I'm asking for $3000 monthly allowance this time.  I'm getting a lot less emails than the last time when I posted for $2000.  Last time I met Mr. D in no time, we clicked right away,  and deleted my account.  Is $3000 too much to ask?  I'm still making little money from work and been spending a lot on my baby sister lately so I really need extra money this year.

I really hate "dominant" type.  So I avoid that.  If they give me just one line like, "you are gorgeous. where do I sign up", of course I don't respond.  What are they thinking??  I got a few emails from the same people who have contacted in the past.  I recognized many profiles there also.  It must be hard for everyone to find the perfect SD/SB..

I'm only looking for one and only special guy.  I need to find him by July 1!!  I'm supposedly meeting 2 potential SDs this week.  I really hate this part.  Especially now it's so damn hot, I will be so sweaty by the time I get there to meet them.  They are both single in their 40's. 

I really miss Mr. D.  Why can't I be with him anymore?  I know he will be back eventually, but I can't wait for him.  Besides, he may leave me again if /when he gets scared next time.  He actually offered me the allowance for July even though he was breaking up with me.  That was nice of him but I turned it down.  It wasn't right and I didn't want him to think it was all about money.  I'm not desparate for money- in fact-  I have a lot of savings.  I just want to save as much as possible while I'm still young.  I want to buy a new place next year too, assuming I won't be in a real relationship for a long time. I always act like I have no money and tell people that I live off my savings.  Not true...I never lived off my savings ever!  I have been saving money secretly every month.

N was trying to see me all day today!  I was really busy with work so I couldn't see him.  He is leaving for Europe next week for 3 weeks.  I will see him this weekend.  He really acts like that child gf of his doesn't exit.  I know that he doesn't want me to ask so I can't ask him though.