"The Woman I Live With"

Three great dates this week:

Fine dining in Meatpacking with Tom.  Amazing restaurant.  Upscale and elegant yet trendy and friendly and not pretentious or uptight at all.  Another new favorite of mine.  We are still very happy together and I realize when it's right, we just know it.  He is married yet we have been publicly together- all my friends (and my family even) know that we have been dating for months.  Very strange yet a happy couple.

Had the best sex with N.  It's been always the greatest but it was different last night.  We were exceptionally passionate the whole time.  We made love for a long time.  As if it was the most important thing in the world.  As if we were so hungry for love.  We took time and caressed every inch of each other's body.  It was filled with so much love.  We were loving each other's soul.  Nothing in the world mattered anymore.  I wish he was my bf or SD but he is neither.  He is just a lover as that has been the only option available to me for years.

Saturday lunch date with Mr. Long Island.  He brought me flowers.  Made me smile.  He has been acting more like a bf than a SD and I don't mind.  He is so sweet and full of potential.  He wants to leave his wife.  Today he called his wife "the woman I live with".  Lol.  He is just great and nothing is wrong with him yet I just can't find strong attraction/passion for him.  Not sure why.  He is young, tall, very attractive, sweet, romantic and everything.  We also have so much in common.  But I'm just not really feeling it...go figure.  Sex is ok.  I think it can get better over time.

I may not see Ron for another month.  I'm not even sure if it's even possible for us to have a relationship.  His sick mother will only get sicker in the future, you know...

Talking to some pots on SA and nothing is really happening.  I don't really care though.  I'm very busy and make/have enough money for now.  But eventually I need a good main SD because I will have to pay my sister's tuition bills later this year.

I finally purchased bareMinerals foundation!!  I know it's the worst thing you can do to your skin but I fall asleep with makeup on at least once a week...so this product is perfect for me as it has no chemicals or preservatives; it's makeup so pure you can sleep in it.  My shade is "Fairly Light".