The Return of Mr. B

Mr. B contacted me this week.  What a surprise.  It was the first time hearing from him since we broke up about 2 months ago.  We texted back and forth mostly talking about work and books he had given me a while back.  He told me that his family was away all this week, obviously implying that he had time to see me, but I didn't comment on that.  Yes I have missed him a lot and felt awful about how it ended then but I have moved on.  I don't think we can go back to where we were...it's just too difficult now.  I just got over that horrifying mishap that happened to us.  I told him that I was taking care of my sister because she was sick (which was true) and was busy at the moment so I would talk to him later.  I never got back to him after that.  Neither did he.
At the same time I was thinking about Mr. Long Island.  I replaced Mr. B with Mr. Long Island.  I'm more and more emotionally involved with Mr. Long Island now and can't switch back to Mr. B, even though Mr. B would provide me with much more allowance as he would be my main SD.  I have been working 2 jobs and taking care of my sick sister every day since last week (I'm spending most of my money and time on my sis...ughhhh); I'm really exhausted and I just can't decide on anything right now.

Speaking of Mr. Long Island.....he may have poofed on me actually.  I haven't heard from him in 4 days.  Since we met more than a month ago, he had been texing me every day.  I was just finally opening up to him and starting to feel like we were dating for real.  Now I feel stupid, huh.  I may hear from him tomorrow but something is definately wrong.  My last text message to him was on Saturday; thanking him for the gifts and telling him how I liked the way he touched my hair.  He never responded which was unusual of him.

N cancelled on me tonight.  Bummer.  I really needed him today.  Having sex with him is recharging...and probably that's how he looks at it too.  It is physical and mental therapy for us.