Ultimate Sugar Dream

I deleted my EM account.  Well I think I did.  I deleted like 10 times, but every time I made sure that it was deleted, I could log in and my profile was still up every time I deleted!  The same thing happened to me with other sugar dating website once.  So at least I deleted my photo and changed my description like height, race, etc.  This is so rediculous.

I'm supposed to see Mr. G, Mr, P and a new pot this week.  Probably no time for DK SD this week.

N is out of town until second week of September....what about my needs??  I really need him once a week.  And so does he.

So I had a first date with my potential future husband, Matt from eHarmony on Friday.  We were texting each other all day already.  He looked great on paper- successful, tall, blue eyes, Ivy League educated, absolutely gorgeous, very athletic, sweet and romantic.  Recently divorced with 2 kids who live with their mother.  I'm not used to non-sugar dating, so I was nervous...but when we met, it was obvious that he was nervous so I was no longer nervous.  I was relaxed and confident just like I always am on sugar dates.  He seemed slightly goofy and dorky but maybe he was just a little nervous.  After dinner (he picked the restaurant),  I took him to my favorite hotel lounge.  I bring everyone there these days...I will run into someone I know there eventually!  Matt had an early flight next day, but our date turned into a 5-hour-long date!!  We were so eager to learn more about each other.  Obviously we were both looking for something serious, and someone who was ready to commit.  Without any pressure/tention, we could ask each other and discuss our ideal relationship/marriage life in details, like where we would want to live, how many kids we would want, etc.

We made out a lot after 3 glasses of vodka and soda.  I can't say he is a great kisser...but not bad...I can work with that.  We were texting each other on the way home, and he called me when he got home to say good night.  He only slept a few hours before his flight...poor thing.  He took his kids to FL for a week.  He also called me from the airport when he landed.  He just does all the right things and he says all the right things at right times (just like the guys on "the Bachelorette" hehe).  I see that he will be a great husband.

We plan to get together next Sunday (he is flying back on Saturday).  Is it too soon to sleep together on a 2nd date?  But I need to know if he is good in bed...I don't have time to waste.  I don't care how rich he is- my husband must be able to satisfy me in bed.  Otherwise I may end up cheating on him (most likely with N).  Oh jeez what if he is terrible in bed....what if his penis is very very small....

Anyways of course I will keep my sugar daddies on the side until I have a ring on my finger.  It's not like Matt will give me cash while we are dating!  But he calls me a lot, which I usually love when I'm in a relationship, but I'm still a sugar baby so I will be with my SDs often.  There will be times when I can't answer the phone all night.  Already stressing me out.....I'm supposed to have a sleepover with Mr. P on Tuesday.  Not sure what to do.

I can't stop daydreaming.  I got so used to being a sugar baby, rich men's lover on the side.  Now I could be a rich man's wife.  I could have a house and kids and everything.  Isn't that the ultimate sugar dream?  Oh, I can hear the wedding march :-)  I'm totally acting like Clarissa in "Maneater".