It's Over

I'm in a pissy mood this week.  I thought I was starting the new job this week but I'm not even sure if I'm starting next week.  They will call me back to let me know when I can start.  It's not the corporate one, but it's something I'm passionate about, so I don't mind the low salary in the beginning....but I definately need sugar daddies on the side to supplement my income this year. 

Mr. G came to my place for the first time yesterday.  I had prepared 3 dishes for lunch and he loved them.  Sex wasn't as good as usual I think mainly because of the condom he brought (Trojan non-lubricated).  My new job is downtown and very close to his office, so he said we can meet for lunch :)
It's actually 2 blocks from N.  I haven't told him about it yet...he just flew back in.   I will see him at some point this weekend I'm sure.

Mr. D totally pissed me off.  He sent me this message: "I decided not to go back to what we had.  As tempting as it is...I need to stay focused on my marriage. Sorry to disappoint you".  This is what I get after he called and texted me every single day since last week and went on one date?  Such a big time waster.  I got nothing but stress out of this drama.  I told him to never contact me again.  That's the end of Mr. D and I.

I had Mario over at night.  I was irritated with so many things.  He flet like dressing up last night (some days he doesn't feel like changing his clothes).  I thought that was a fun project for me since I was in a pissy mood.  I gave him a long dress.  He chose a blond bob wig and put on red pumps.  His legs were shaved as always and he already had a bra and panties on.  I sprayed him with my perfume (miracle by lancome), put a lipstick and gloss on his lips, and gave him a pedicure.  He was so happy and got a little emotional.  He said he was waiting to become a woman all his life.  Recently his sister-in-law told everyone in his family that he was gay.  He is not exactly gay but he is a cross dresser.  He said if everyone thinks that, maybe he doesn't have to hide it anymore...maybe he will start dressing like a woman when his family is around....he doesn't care anymore.  He asked me to hang out with him more often.  I'm the only person who knows his secret.  He asked me to give him a female name.  After we explored many ideas, we decided on Rebecca.  "I'm Rebecca!" he repeated proudly many times.  He gave me more money than usual.  It's a strange relationship we have, but I consider it as "transvestite counseling" and he pays for my time.

I need a good man to sweep me off my feet.  I still think about Ron every day and he has no idea. Now he only texts me once a week.  I'm still holding a Christmas gift for him.  So pathetic.