Still suffering from the flashbacks from the date with Mr. B. I'm traumatized- it was such an emotionally disturbing experience caused by my careless mistake. Only time will heal, I guess.
I haven't heard from Ron since our fantastic date on Friday even though I have texted him twice. I feel like I'm back to square one. To the place where I wonder if we are still dating and feeling like it's going nowhere. I feel like I jumped the gun announcing my relationship with Ron to some people. Maybe there is no such thing. Maybe it's all in my head. I won't break up with Tom just yet. I'm even thinking of trying seekingarrangement.com once again. Maybe I'm just tired from the longest work day.
My mom is having a hard time paying all the bills and I'm being pressured to support my baby sister even more. I need money. When it comes to supporting my family, I feel like I need to forget knowing right from wrong. I choose my family over doing the right thing from time to time.
I completely understand how family obligations and lack of finances can cloud your judgement. But you have to stay true to yourself. Learn from my mistakes,please. I've turned down scholarships to stay here when I first graduated to take care of my sister. What I have learned is people appreciate things when they get it for themselves.
ReplyDeleteI'm always grateful when anything is done for me or givin to me (not saying that your family doesn't appreciate you)but other's aren't always so appreciative.
I read many years a go in a magazine on Will Smith and Jada. He was asked if he and his family was drowning who would he save. He said he would save hisself first.
I remember thinking that selfish M.F-er lol
BUt then it made sense to me much later.
You have to save yourself first because if you drown then you won't be able to save anyone else. Or if your trying to save everyone panking....not know who to save first.. then you all may die.
I said that to say that you have to save you First! You have to save your mind, your body, and your soul! If there is something that you don't want to do in the sugar bowl or a man you don't want to bang (now or ever) then don't! Because, we have to live with our consequences of our owe actions. We're the one's who have to shower off the residue of our lovers.
So please if you feel pressure (believe me my family is feelin' the recession..hard) think about you first!
Now, lol on a lighter note...
Why do you have to get rid of anyone of them...
Shit keep them all..until you can't keep them anymore..until it ends..
Unless it's wearing on you then get rid of one (lol)
I hope this helps :)
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thanks honey...no worries I have limits so I don't do anything I don't want to, and I know how to say no. I push myself a little but not too much. yeah I know I have to make myself happy before I make others happy. I'm not really emotionally stable so I won't make any decision right now...won't get rid of anyone; won't get any new one lol.
ReplyDeleteI agree, and can I ask why announce that you are seeing someone else? They dont have to know, its not really their place to know in my opinion. Sorry to hear about Mr B hope everything works out for you babe.
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all the SDs I meet assume & expect exclusivity...sometimes I'm tired of lying/making up stories and I just want to be honest and make it simple...they are all married and it's none of their business but that's not how they look at it unfortunately!
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