Paris, Here I Come!

Something about candles.  Soothing and relaxing.  It calms down my nerves.  Especially the scented/aromatherapy ones.  I bought a lavender essential oil candle today because I needed one.  Something extremely upsetting happened to me at work earlier.  I was beyond furious....I was shaking with so much anger, I didn't know what to do.  I thought about taking a whole month off in November.  Even the rest of the year.  But that's not realistic.  Maybe I want to fly away to somewhere far and fabulous today or tomorrow.  I can't.  I've got a Halloween party to go to tomorrow night.  Then next day.  I can't.  My CA SD is flying in tomorrow and we are supposed to see each other this week.  Ok..he never sees me over the weekend in general. So I can leave town this weekend.  I thought about my options and texted my rich friend; "want to go to Paris this weekend?".  He is in love with me but I never do anything with him.  We have traveled together many times in the past but nother ever happened.  He checked the flight information right away and booked us tickets and a hotel.  We are leaving for Europe in 4 days!  I can't tell my sugar daddies about this trip because they won't believe it's just a friendly trip...I know it's hard to believe but I don't even kiss him even though we do share a bed when we travel together.  I set the boundaries and he tries his best to control himself.  He is just a friend and I'm not attracted to him unfortunately.  I checked the weather in Paris.  It's warmer than NY.  They are 5 hours ahead of us.  My first time in Europe.  Croissant and cafe au lait.  Eiffel tower.  Museums.  Chanel and Louis Vuitton. Cabaret and Jazz!  I'm not so angry anymore.  How can I stay mad?  I'm off to Paris.