Off To Europe!

I'm still in a bad mood.  I really hope this trip will be a good one and give me positive energy and new insights on things in my life...

I told N about the trip.  "Sounds romantic" he said.  His response totally annoys me.  I can't really explain why.  Maybe because I feel like he is making me feel guilty for going away with another man, but I travel with other people because he would never take me anywhere.  I responded; "It is not a romantic trip unfortunately. I'm still single".  He just wished me a nice trip after that.

Ron.  I totally lost interest in him.  I haven't seen him since we slept together for the first time about a month ago.  Yet he keeps texing me meaningless stuff like how are you, how's work going, or he tells me how he is busy with work and family, etc.  He hasn't asked me out for another date.  He never says things like "thinking about you" or "I miss you".  He really turns me off on text messages too...he sounds like a child.  Now I don't think we are a good match at all.  I also told Ron about the trip.  He texted; "What 4 days????".  Again, very childish response.  I texted back; "I'm saving the long trip for my honeymoon, that is if I ever get married".  He also just wished me a great trip after that.

Finally CA SD got back to me.  I knew there was a death in his family and he has been very busy with family stuff.  He gave me his schedule and it looks like we won't see each other until the end of November.  That is not good.  I haven't got half of October allowance yet...not to mention November allowance (he gives me half of allowance in the beginning of the month and another half at the end of the month).  If I don't see him for almost 2 months, I feel bad and awkward for expecting the same amount of allowance.  I feel a little bit insecure too...maybe he will want a new SB in his state.

DK SD asked me if I could fly to Miami this weekend with him on his business trip.  Only if he had asked me last Sunday!  I may have chosen Miami trip with DK over my personal trip to Europe with my friend who is already giving me lots of stress over this trip. 

Anyways..I'm off to Europe in 7 hours!