Happy Kitten

N came over for a bit last night. I was drowsy because of all the meds I was taking after a dreadful dental appointment. We didn't make love because he thought I was all drugged out...I was like a little happy kitten in his arms. He kissed me and stroked my hair in the way nobody else could. He is too precious to let go completely. Is it possible to keep him in my life somehow without getting myself hurt? Almost impossible.