Can't Buy Me Love

Jason came over earlier today.  He was annoying me prior to his visit by asking me over and over if I wanted to see him.  We had planned this already and I made myself available for him, and he kept asking me if I was up for it.  He said "I want you to want to see me".  How annoying is that?  I told him I wouldn't do anything I don't want to and I cleared my schedule for him so he better not cancel.
So he came over right on time, and he surprised me with $100 gift card from Victoria's Secret (in addition to allowance).  That was sweet of him.  But I don't need to buy anything from VS now...DK SD just bought me a lot of lingerie and he is taking me back to the store in 2 weeks.
Jason had problems getting hard and staying hard again.  I was impatient and annoyed secretly.  He was trying to make me cum with his hands but that wasn't working for me.  Eventually I made him cum by giving him a hand job.  I wasn't feeling it the whole time...just wasn't in a mood.
Later he sent me an email; "I know I'm just some guy that pays to be with you, but I hope it's more than that for you.  I know it is for me...".  Ugh.  How annoying!!

In the evening, Mr. B came over.  I was really looking forward to seeing him again but I was still not really in a mood and kind of distracted by random thoughts... We had good sex but this time I secretly wished his penis was a little bigger...it was still good but a bit unsatisfying...
His family will be away for a while so we are planning a fun date in the city next time.  I will even sleep over in his place.  It is so bold of him to have me in the house where he lives with his wife and their kid.
He left some allowance again on the night stand like the last time.  Next time I will have a talk with him; he should give me the whole monthly allowance at once, or half at the beginning of the month and other half at the end of the month.  We met in mid December so I'm expecting half of the monthly allowance we agreed on, but we didn't really discuss it...I guess I should bring it up next time.

I'm emotionally exhausted and a little overwhelmed by the needs of all those men.  I'm meeting another pot tomorrow and he will get us a room at my favorite hotel in midtown.  I usually don't do it on the first date, but he looks and sounds so sweet, I feel comfortable skipping the first interview date over drinks and going straight to the hotel room to meet him.
I'm meeting DK SD for lunch next week.  I may meet Mr. H on Monday or Tuesday and he may get us a hotel room.  Then sleep over at Mr. B's.  I'm already tired just scheduling all that...  I don't think I can keep going like this for too long.  I actually started looking for another job.  In the same industry I'm in right now, but a job that gives me a stable salary with benefits including health insurance.  Even if it's a low salary, I will take it as long as I get a stable annual salary with benefits.  Then maybe I will keep one SD.  If I'm still single by then.

I have a date with Ron tomorrow night.  I'm so excited.  The thought of him keeps me sane.  I'm a regular girl when I'm with him.  Not a sugar baby.  We are a normal happy couple in public...not hiding, not arranged, not pretending... He may never become super rich but he is for real.  He will never cheat on me like all those successful married sugar daddies I'm sleeping with.  I choose true love over money.