FL SD won't be back in town until next month. Does that mean I don't get my September's allowance? Ugh. Well I can't make him send me money. I only see him once a month at most. That is why he is my No.2 SD. I feel like our relationship/arrangement is getting weaker and weaker, but I'm not planning to look for another SD at this time. I'm enjoying more free time now, outside of the sugar world. If I have 2 full time SDs, I will go crazy, feeling suffocated, overwhelmed and stressed out- I have a very busy life with a full time job, friends and family.
I spent the night with this hot, young pre-med student last night. We met on Craigslist at the end of last year. He has me over once in a while. He always requests that I wear jeans and no makeup. The girl next door fantacy? Hahaha. Anyways he is not only totally gorgeous, but super sweet and smart. He shouldn't have any problem getting girls but I guess he is too busy or too shy? Well obviously he likes me a lot even though it is a paid date every time...and I know how much he hates it. He has implied that he wanted to be my boyfriend many times. In the beginning I was really attracted to him and I even wondered if I could be with him for real. But because of how we met, I didn't think it would work out as a real couple. I also learned that he usually gets bored and ends up cheating on his girlfriend whenever he is in a long term relationship. Well I'm such a perfect girlfriend in every way whenever I'm with him only because that's what he is paying for, and he should be smart enough to know that...
I'm not talking to N nor Justin for a while and I'm proud of myself. Not sure how long I can stay strong without them but I will try staying away from them as long as I can.
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