"Say My Name"

Mr. F came over this morning.  We have a lot in common so we can talk forever about so many things.  I'm glad that he is also into fitness and healthy eating.  His girlfriend is a personal trainer and she thinks he is fat.  He asked me if I thought he was fat three times today!  I said of course not.  He is not fat at all.  He works out almost every day and he looks great for his age.  His abs are not defined yet but at least flat.  I'm starting to understand why he needs me on the side even though he has a gorgeous girlfriend...she must criticise him a lot even though he is trying so hard to stay in shape.

We are not really compatible in bed.  I was disappointed a bit.  First of all, his penis is very thick.  Obviously he enjoys receiving oral sex  but my mouth is simply too small for that.  I couldn't perfom for long because my jaw was in so much pain.  Second of all, he loves to talk in bed.  I don't.  I'm not a talker in bed.  I mean, I'm not completely mute; I do say things like, oh yeah, I like that, oh I love it, that feels great, oh I'm close, oh baby, I'm cumming, etc, but that's about it.  He doesn't talk dirty, but he says things like, "Are you going to be my girl?"  "Are you all mine?"  "Say my name" etc.  So I was just repeating what he said.  Lol.  I always always felt uncomfortable and awkward calling someone's name in bed.  I don't know why people are into that!  He gets hard but not quite hard enough for me to really enjoy it.  He brought the same KY ultragel I use...I coudln't help but smile.  I have two bottles of them in my drawer!  He gave me cash allowance today and supposedly his office will mail out a check of my August allowance on 8/1.  Looking forward to it.

We went to my favorite Italian restaurant for lunch.  The veal dish I had was really good....I may go back there again with Mr. Long Island tomorrow.  I take everyone there.  Over lunch he told me that he had already purchased an engagement ring for his girlfriend!  I guess he is not 100% sure about proposing to her hence holding it for months and having me around as his second girlfriend (he said he wants to think of me as his girlfriend.  Hmmm he can call me whatever as long as he keeps sending me the checks).

Lately I feel like I have a little bit of a problem focusing on things sometimes. I keep making simple mistakes at work.  My energy level is not bad but I also find myself unable to keep up with my boxing training from time to time.  Not sure if that's because my body is still getting used to the new Atkins diet or maybe because I'm still in the process of losing weight (I lost 4 pounds in 2 weeks so far).  Using ketostix has been positive reinforcement and great reassurance for me and it helps me keep going without cheating on my diet.