Too Many Thoughts...

Too many thoughts.  Too many events and too much information this week.
Ron just scared me letting me think for a second that his mom had just died; no, it wasn't her, it was his colleague.  I'm about to move on, so he shouldn't confuse me like that...  I'm finally getting ready to move on and he starts talking to me.  Actually I'm only putting him on the back burner for now and I'm exploring other options.  I'm flying to another city for another guy in 5 days.  A young doctor...he is exhilarated...I can't disappoint this amazing guy.  Not sure what will happen on this trip but I'm already daydreaming about marrying Dr. K. Lol.

Lawyer SD has been flaky and I didn't see him this week.  I'm losing interest in him so fast.  We are supposed to get together on Tuesday.

Mr. Long Island.  Where the fuck do I start on this guy.  So after he pissed me off 2 weeks ago, he reached out to me and asked if I was upset with him.  I simply told him that if he still wanted to see me, things had to change; we need to go back to our original term on the allowance amount, and he needs to notify me in advance on our dates.  His reply was, "That was rough, Georgina".  What the fuck.  I told him that it's common decency and minimum respect in any relationship.  I have a very busy life working 2 jobs and taking care of family.  I'm never just free unless I make myself available.  Then he told me that he didn't know that I needed notice.  Is he fucking stupid?  Did he fucking assume I don't need money and I'm free every day doing nothing, after I have told him the whole life story?  He said he didn't assume anything and he was sorry.  He sounded like a retarded 5 year old kid.

Tom took me to a fancy and trendy restaurant in midtown.  We had a great time.  I think the total bill came out to be close to $500.  He doesn't disappoint me.

N and I had amazing sex a few days ago.  He did something new to me.  We both came fast.  I told him I was flying to Chicago next weekend.  He didn't ask why.  I think he knew it involves another man.  I like being honest with him so we can avoid the complications in the future, and also I don't want him to take me for granted.  I can drop him just like that anytime I want to so he better worship and treasure me.

My salary combined with allowance from Mr. G, Mel, Mario and occasionally Jason (plus some help from Tom), I can pay my bills and my sister's expenses (but not her tuition).  For now I'm ok but of course it's better to have a main full time SD.  Not actively looking at the moment though.  I'm more and more interested in a husband hunt than a SD hunt lately.