Pissy Bitchy Cranky

I got a text from Lawyer SD.  "Just wanted to wish you a lovely weekend, and I've decided you are basically bubbly- which is wonderful".  I'm really starting to hate that word...seriously.  Obviously that is his favorite word and that's what he is attracted to- a "bubbly" girl; which I am so NOT.  Whatever.  Let him live on his fantasy for now.

I think I will delete Mr. Long Island from my life.  Yeah I will dump that ass.  I was pissed, now I don't really care.  He definately takes me for granted now and he only texts me like 2 days a week and he doesn't even respond to all my texts.  We are supposed to see each other every Saturday, but he doesn't even tell me if he can't make it unless I reach out to him and confirm.  And he gives me the least allowance amount of all my SDs, after his business went down.  You know what, you don't fucking deserve me anymore, dude.  I ignored his last text message.  If he tries hard to talk to me, I will tell him that it's not working for me anymore and if he wants to continue, we will have to go back to our original terms on our allowance agreement.

I guess I have been in a bad mood all week.  Can't help it.  I love my job but my boss is such an idiotic asshole.  My sister is always sick.  I don't have a boyfriend.  N is out of town until next week (I really needed him this weekend!!) hence no good sex for me this week.

I had Rebecca a.k.a Mario over last night.  I pierced his ear upon his request.  It wasn't as easy as I thought.  I also gave him a new dress and panties and he put them on happily.  He gave me some money as always.  Obviously he is not a SD but I count his money as sugar money...I keep records of the sugar allowance every month.

My Dr. friend contacted me out of the blue today.  He invited me to go to Chicago with him on a weekend business trip in 2 weeks.  I said yes and he was ecstatic.  I haven't seen him in 9 months since he moved to another state.  He is a great guy; tall, good looking, smart, sweet, a successful doctor, and he is very young....too young for me.  Every time I hung out with him, I wished I was attracted to him.  But I never was.  Now I'm very single and frustrated; I decided to give him another shot.  Why not.  Maybe he has matured a bit since I last saw him.  He said we will do everything there- spa, shopping, fancy dining and clubbing...sounds like a SD?  It will be like a sugary trip minus the allowance.  Lol.  He will book my tickets tomorrow.  I know you can't force chemistry, but what's not to like- a good looking, young doctor who is crazy about me?  I'm excited about the shopping part...will he buy me a designer bag?  Jewelry?  I know we will have a great time there.  We haven't even kissed yet though...will it be awkward?  I know he won't try to do anything with me unless I want to.  Probably I will sleep with him on this trip.  I think he is good in bed.  I guess I never did anything with him in the past because he is such a great guy and I never wanted to hurt him in any way.  Well I'm excited.  I could use a good trip- it's about time!