I haven't seen Ron in about a month. He is a very busy man. He texts me once or twice a week. Every month I can't help but wonder if we are still dating, or if he still likes me. On our last date he got me a surprise Christmas gift and I was over the moon...being assured that he did like me and we were dating for real. We had breakfast together for the first time too after spending the night at his place. Then weeks went by and I was back to wondering: are we still dating?
His texts are never ever flirtatious kinds. They are never more than friendly messages like "how are you?" "how's work?" "how's family?" etc. We were texting each other yesterday and I mentioned that I was going to the movies with a friend. 10 min later he sent me this message: "As the lights are dimming at the beginning of the film, imagine me putting my hand on your thigh and kissing your ear". I couldn't believe my eyes. For a second I thought he sent this to me by mistake. I wasn't sure if that was meant for me. But it was! This came from a guy who never wrote more than how are you for the last 5 months! He has never said anything like I miss you, can't wait to see you, etc in the past. Suddenly I got butterflies in my stomach.
Ron is the only guy I'm dating for real. Others don't count as they are SDs/married. I understand Ron has almost no free time currently but we really need to spend more time together and get to know each other. Even though we spend the night every time we see each other (once a month), it just doesn't seem enough time each time- It feels like we are always running out of time. I sure hope he becomes my boyfriend this year and that's when my life will completely change. I will end my sugar life and say good bye to N forever with no regrets.

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