Guests On Sunday

I ran home from work because Mr. B was coming over.  I changed into sexy lingerie quickly.  My makeup was done.  My hair was done.  When he arrieved, I was still putting on thigh high stockings.  I sprayed perfume all over my body and ran to the door.  He liked to see me half naked at the door.
After that incident, I'm still not totally comfortable with him.  We were just great and happy in the beginning, but now I keep thinking, "he is not to be trusted" at the back of my mind.
I was all dressed up sexy and all but I don't know, something was off today.  Sex wasn't that great like last time.  He couldn't cum for a long time and he was really sweating on me.  After what seemed like forever (lol), I started making out with him and I felt him getting harder inside of me, so I kept kissing him until he finished.  Then we just talked for a long time while he was holding me and stroking my hair in bed.  I hope our relationship lasts long without any more "misunderstanding"...

I was so tired after he left and wondered why....then I was like, oh yeah, Mr. B was fucking me for a long time...that is why!

Now N wants to come over.  I haven't seen him more than a week.  I saw him on TV earlier.  It always feels weird to see him on media so I rarely do.  It kinda makes me angry because I'm reminded of the fact that he is hiding me from pubic.  I'm obviously so damn important to him yet he needs to hide me completely.  It's not that I want pubic attention but why can't he even say that I'm a friend?  Whatever.  I gave up all the hopes long time ago.  I will move on eventually.  I will get married to someone else and live happily ever after.  I'm so sleepy but gotta jump in the shower before N gets here!