Sunday, April 28, 2013

Back For a Brief Moment

I was away from this site for over 2 months.  Oh I really missed my girls here!
Sean and I are still going strong, living together.  Some days our relationship seems perfect, and some days, less than perfect.  It's been over 7 months.  How long do we really need to know that he is the one?

I had dinner with Mr. G the other day.  He was so happy that we stayed friends.  I told him that I have a boyfriend now without much details.  I guess he was happy for me.  I wondered if he had a new sugar baby but I didn't know how to ask.  I told him I was still having financial problems and really hoping he would offer me something....well he didn't.  After I went home, he sent me a text message saying, if financial situation gets really bad, he would be happy to help me without any obligations.  I was like, I did let him know today!!!! Yet he didn't offer me anything!!!  Next time I see him, I guess I have to actually ask for cash straighforward, rather than just mentioning I need money.  Guys can be so clueless sometimes, I guess.

I saw Mel once.  My longest term-SD.  As I have been making it clear, our rules have been changed.  Whenever I'm in a real relationship, we only keep a platonic relationship.  After hours of begging, I ended up providing a minimal sexual favor though.  It was so minimal I didn't consider it cheating.  Mel was not totally satisfied but gave me the same amount of allowance as usual.  That helped a lot!  Jeez it's been so hard living without any sugar money.  I got a tiny raise at work and also an insurance- I can barely pay all my monthly bills.  If I need to buy clothes or shoes, I need to take out from my savings.  Sean is still on a job hunt while he works at the current firm he hates.  He still can't even afford half of our rent- well any of it actually.  All he can afford is our grocery and all the bills whenever we go out.  He has a job interview this week so let's cross our fingers.

N and I started talking more.  Now we know that we can get together without being intimate.  It's still nice.  I feel like he is one of the very few people who really knows me.  There is this nice closeness between us.  Still precious.

I told my mom and sister that I can no longer support my sister.  I just can't.  I'm not a sugar baby anymore and I don't make much money yet.  I only make $35K before taxes... and it costs a fortune to live in NYC.  I wish I were a more active SB when I was a lot younger and had saved up.

5 comments:

  1. So how did your Mom and Sister take it? I want to know about setting boundaries.

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  2. I told my sister by emails and texts and so far got no response... I told my mom over the phone and she didn't really say anything. My family members are not great communicators, lol. well I made myself clear on I can no longer support anyone. I'm hardly surviving myself. Let them work out between them.

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  3. Reading this definitely reaffirms my desire to save as much as I can this year; ideally my last year as a sugar baby to correspond with my last year of graduate school.

    I can imagine the change between having SDs and then to going without

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  4. Dear Georgina, I haven't been updating on my blog for more than half a year... but I still remember that you were one of the first SBs I talked to on here when I first discovered the sugar world back in 2011... I loved reading your posts and appreciated your advice. I am happy to hear you keep doing your thing, staying strong - outside the sugar bowl! Things have changed a lot for me and now I am officially together with my SD (who was originally my "back up daddy")... I am still getting financial support, but it doesn't feel like allowance any more. I cannot imagine being with a "regular" (broke) guy anymore... but you never know where love takes you. Wish you all the best! xoxo

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  5. aww I miss talking to all my girls...being away for along long :-(
    I hope it works out with your new bf/former SD :-)

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