N

N came over today.  We hadn't seen each other for 4 months.  That was the longest we'd ever gone without seeing each other.  Yes I have been busy with my boyfriend Sean, but I guess I kept avoiding him for as long as I could.  I was pretty confident that I would never cheat on Sean, but I guest I couldn't trust myself 100% after all.

N has been a big part of my life for over 4 years.  I think we should stay friends.  We have loved each other deeply in wrong ways but we do care about each other.  N looked taller than I remembered.  We just sat on my couch and talked for one hour.  He could see that now I have great things going in my life with a great career and a boyfriend.  He was happy for me.  Things are going really well in his life as well.  I feel like we had a great closure.  I feel better now.  It's official.  I have moved on.  I'm over N.  Now we are just friends.

I have been living off cash for a few years as I collected cash from SDs every month.  Since I quit being a sugar baby a little while ago, now I'm down to $300 in cash... It's so weird that now I have to withdraw money from my bank account every month (I deposit checks from work into a bank account every month).

I don't regret for being a sugar baby.  I have met so many great guys I wouldn't have met if it weren't for the sugar business.  Sugar daddies helped me get through tough times and so I could take time and move closer and closer to my career goals while feeling like a princess.  I don't think being a sugar baby is a sin.  It is a type of financial aid.  It works as long as you believe in your goals and dreams, and as long as it is a temporary solution.  If you are young and beautiful with career plans and goals, let those wealthy CEOs help you get there.  Why not.  But play and stay safe.