I had a pregnancy scare; that really made me think things over. It was of course with N. I don't want to go into details right now but we broke up (for the hundredth time, yeah I know...). Let's just leave it like that now. I dealt with enough pain already. But I'm willing to take him back if he could come back with a good explanation. He owes it to me that much.
Mr. G had to cancel on me over the weekend because of his family. I don't even remember how many times he cancelled on me this month. So we had a quick date at a cafe yesterday. He gave me my allowance. We didn't have sex this month- very unsual but it's his fault!! I really like him and happy with him. But once-a-month arrangement with $500 plus gifts is just not enough for me; hence my sugar hunt goes on.
Dr. K came to NY last night for another conference and job interview. Unexpectedly we have been seeing a lot of each other lately. He might be really moving back here. We had some drinks at one of my favorite lounges then we went back to his hotel room in midtown. My feelings for him become stronger and stronger every time I see him. We have a lot in common and I think we are really good for each other. We already feel like a couple but not really as long as we live in different states. But I'm certain we will become a real couple if he moves back here. Sex was better than last time so I was relieved...I think it can get even better over time in the future. Debussy's "The Girl with the Flaxen Hair" (La Fille aux Cheveux de Lin) was on his iPad in the background. I think it made our love making extra special...what a sweet and beautiful piece. I always liked Chopin a lot but now I'm in love with Debussy's piano.
sorry to hear about your breaking up with N... I´m going through the kind of pain, too atm. cant believe that I´m actually feeling the same heart-break I felt 2yrs ago when I was with my asshole-ex who´s the reason I became so fucked up. never thought this could happen to me in the sugar bowl, but well... I agree with you, most men on sites like SA etc. must be at least a little bit fucked up too or weird somehow...otherwise they wouldn´t be there. we SBs know how long + devastating the SD hunt can be... for me, I still believe Ted was the best I could get (from the sugar bowl) and our relationship wasnt a business deal cuz we both had feelings... that´s why I regret my "childish behaviour" all the time... although he´s hurtin me too, but I like to see it as my fault... so hard to let go :((
ReplyDeleteI´m still hoping for him to come back... but now strings are broken... I like it how you keep moving on and keep yourself distracted. I have to do this too, but I just miss him too bad :( good luck to you, girl.