Men From My Past Still Stay in My Life in Different Ways

Some sugary updates:

Mr. P
One of my former SDs, Mr. P texted me recently.  Hi, how;s your life, and stuff.  Then he goes, "I haven't been able to replace you!".  Lol.  What do you say to that??  I was tempted to suggest a meetup, but I just replied ; "oh no".  Lol!!  He wouldn't mind me having a bf, but I really can't have a secret life from my bf, Sean.

Mr. G
We still have a quick dinner once a month.  I enjoy seeing him.  We are like good friends now.  I can tell that he still wants me and hoping to get together like we used to.  Well sorry but it won't be happening.  He buys me the monthly metro card each time.  Now it's so expensive, it really helps me out!  He almost kissed me tonight but I didn't let it happen.  Sean knows that I have dinner with him every month but he hasn't asked how I know him, etc.  No question, no answer.  He thinks it's funny and weird that I have so many much older gentleman friends.

Rebecca
Finally I was able to have him over last Sunday when Sean was out all day.  My transvestite (?) friend who believes he is a woman trapped inside of his male body.  I dressed him up in a red dress and red heels.  Trimmed his eyebrows.  Applied shiny lip gloss on him.  Took some photos.  We went to my favorite restaurant for lunch.  He said he doesn't mind meeting my bf.  I haven't told Sean about him yet- I don't even know where to start.  I met him when I started dating sugar daddies years ago.  Rebecca is not a SD and there's nothing ever going on between us, but he gives me money every time we hang out.  He is still confused as to which sex he is attracted to.  Anyways I still don't know how to explain all this to Sean and I felt bad having Rebecca over secretly.  I hate keeping anything from him.

N
We have been successfully just friends for so long now!  Miracle does happen.  I always only told Sean that I would go hang out with my friend N whenever we hung out, and never said anything else.  Finally a few days ago I told him who N really was.  I told him that my friend N is actually a famous person- told him his full name and everything.  But I didn't tell him that I used to date him.  One thing at a time.  Telling my bf about N was a big deal and a big step.  Again.  I hate keeping secrets from Sean.

I do admit I miss being a sugar baby.  I miss the glamorous lifestyle.  Being with rich and powerful men in gorgeous settings.